Today I was reading through some of my old prayer journals. I've been keeping a journal of my prayers since 2007 and it has been one of the biggest blessings to look back and see what God has done in my life. Looking back, I can read all the feelings I had and how God worked out everything in my life in time.
One area of my life particularly made me realize God knew exactly what he was doing. I've been a Christian all my life, and going to college, I knew would put a strain on my relationship with Christ. All my prayers leading up to my freshmen semester were a lot similar in asking God to always be first in my life and to let all the distractions fade away.
As first semester progressed my prayers changed from asking God to be first to telling him how much I need him to be. I was making a lot of mistakes at the time and living in the darkness, but my prayers were getting more sincere in desperate need for him to pull me out of the life I was living and give me new life. It's so encouraging to look back and think that all those times I was crying out to God, he heard me. And while I was walking away from him, he was still pursuing me.
God is always pursuing you. Even when you feel like he isn't there. He wants to be your Prince and he will rescue you.
